Honestly, it’s not just that our mental healths are tending towards abnormal, it’s also the expectation of how normal it should be. Everyday we are all tested towards how productive we are, how hard we work to land our jobs, and how quickly we recover from things that perturb us.
The biggest issue I have is however that the narratives these days tend to not ask for character, and inner virtues. Everyone wants to race ahead, because that’s the most externally rewarded path! And one who cares ends up like me, hurt physically and mentally.
I want to go slow, and become the person I want to. I want to work slow, the way which is healthy for my heart and mind. I will try to get better, but not while being anal about my every moment of the day!
Honestly, I like my days lately. I do analysis from Terence Tao, Topology from NPTEL and UoTorronto, Algebra from NPTEL and Dummit and Foote. I do origami to relax, and do something with my hands – try to read sometimes. I am moving my body regualrly, trying to walk wherever I can, infact go for long walks to commute. I met Trivikram the other day, and we walked fro more than couple of hours straight… It was great!