We should start from the beginning. No, not from the complete beginning. Just from December, when I had finished applying for the Scotland CDT on Mathematical Physics. I had promised myself a few things. That I would finish all the works: Ideas of QFT, Analysis, Algebra, and DIfferential Geometry, Gauge Fields, and Master’s thesis with slightly expanded conclusion. I started off really well, I worked a lot on the gauge fields report. I had also been studying abstract algebra/analysis a little, mostly in the park. But, while ignoring personal events that took place during that time, I was burned out. Showing up every day, giving in all my energy to studying, understanding things and most importantly, caring them deeply enough to write and think about them. I couldn’t take it any more.
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Well, there’s so much to tell. I wanted to mainly update about my current decisions. I will now resume academic works. I really wanted to finish manifesting a lot of stuff, but I think I fell in a trap. But I do think positively, and take things in a hopeful spirit. I managed to fill in those progress bars a lot! There’s a real nice illustration that is coming to my mind, but I am too tired and sleepy for presenting that. So, the thing is now that I have secured some core skills to move forward in other domain of my interests, I should feel hopeful for opportunities somewere along the intersections of these… There’s no end in sight, but let’s go.
For the next month, i.e. March, I really want to focus on doing math. Yes. Now I also have an idea about how I function. That I do need to let out my communicative and creative side… And I also can’t multi-task at all!! Honestly, I just want to finish the textbook reading part, because that’s the biggest bottleneck I have now. Yep! So I have been thinking, just like February was for CODING, can I turn next month into something like this!? It will be a nice pact, and a committed one. No guilt trips… Just ride those books aaram se! Ofcourse there are some targets. Group theory finish karna hn and make reasonable progress in Terence Tao and Linear Algebra… No writing or stuff…. Background mn I can learn stuff yeap. Like three.js, GSAP, WEBGL, 3D whatever shit… Also, learn the systems of (creative) web developers… how they function, organize their stuff…
Anyway, so here we go!!! My new site has evolved a lot. I am happy with the time I spent on it. It’s no way near completition, there is organizing code, responsiveness and landing page design to do… But that can continue… I need some inspiration now, and as usual math gives me so….
So, yeah, tomorrow morning get the document shit done and start doing mathhh…. LET’s GOOOOO>…. Resume algebra, and fucking alternating groups and all that fucking shitttttt….. Actually group actions is going on now…. but yeah.,… let’s seee… let’s gooo…. Have peaceful time with it… Can stay away from laptop for sometime now !!! Just peaceful mornings and eevning at the park… and readdddd….. think…. do….. it’s okay…